BUT, as part of my new year resolution, "SWEAT EVERYDAY, AT LEAST 30 MINUTES A DAY" I have decided that it's finally time for me to get off my ass and do something about my body. So that means that I, Film, am jumping on the Fitness bandwagon. But fear not my readers, I solemnly swear that I will never go crazy like all the fit advocates in 2013.
In 2010, I started my first year of university. I think I was around 55 kg at that time (121 lbs). Last summer after my second year of university, I went home to Thailand and managed to lose some weight. We were traveling around for a bit on vacation so there were a lot of walking and hiking. I weighed around 52-53 kg (115 lbs) but as soon as I came back to Canada once again, my weight went up. I haven't weigh myself since that summer of 2012 so I have no idea what I weigh now. But from looking in the mirror and how my clothes feel on me, I feel like I'm back to around 125 lbs.
From 2008 until today, I couldn't get back to my initial weight and back into shape. I was a hardcore dancer - I danced for 16 years. I was in shape. Ever since I came to Canada I stopped dancing. I stopped exercising all together. I was never one to go to the gym and run on the treadmill. I hated that. I even signed up for a year membership (I went a total of 10 times max). I canceled the membership after the year mark is up and then a couple of years later I joined again. And then I canceled again. I was never motivated enough to push myself to go regularly.
At this point in my life, I'm not looking to go back to my initial 110 pounds. I was 16 years old then. But I am 21 years old today, and I've been very unhappy with myself for a long time. Too long, in fact. I know that the biggest part of my unhappiness is how I feel when I look at myself in the mirror. Not only that, I am unhappy mentally. Not loving my body and not liking how I feel really hurt my self confidence.
So this year, 2014, I am finally doing it. After saying that "I'm going to do it" on and off for the past 5 years, I'm doing it now. Today, January 1st, marks the first day of my road to happiness. I will learn how to love my body again. I will learn how to love myself. I am fortunate enough to live in a building that has a fitness amenity. That means that I don't need to join a membership at a local gym. I have the convenience of easily walking down 2 flights of stairs from my room. Today I took advantage of that. I sweat for 30 minutes today. It was extremely difficult for me, mind you. I hate cardio and I hate running (I don't know how and I can't). But we all have to start somewhere (I walked on an incline today - didn't run or jog but it made me sweat) and you can bet your bottom dollar that I will be finding other ways to sweat it out for half an hour each day, everyday aside from running on the treadmill or going at it on the elliptical. I missed dancing so much so I will properly be dancing around in my room until I sweat for half an hour on some days when I really really don't feel like going downstairs to the Fitness Room. I have some workout DVDs at home too, some have never even been touched after I bought it, so that will definitely be coming in handy for this journey I'm currently on.
I'm setting a short term goal for myself. It is going to be a big challenge for me and it's going to be really difficult. But I won't give up, not this time. I am going into this with a completely new mindset (in case you're curious, I'm telling me to workout everyday like it's my job and I'm getting paid to sweat 30 minutes a day. A bit extreme? Maybe, but I'm going with a trial-and-error process so if this mentality doesn't work out I'll find something else but for now this will do). My goal daily is to obviously push myself to workout and sweat for 30 minutes. My short term goal is to be consistent for the next 6 weeks. After I conquer these 6 weeks I will be forming a habit so these workout will become my daily routine which will turn into a lifestyle. You know that quote that says "It takes 4 weeks for you to see your body changing. It takes 8 weeks for friends and family and it takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world."? This is going to be my reminder. I follow numerous accounts on instagram that are my fitness inspiration. My deadline will be my graduation in May.
If there are any of you out there who are having a really hard time like me, sticking to working out consistently, having no motivation to actually get up and move about, or the king and queen procrastinators out there who are constantly pushing to workout "later", don't worry. I know how you feel 100% because we are on the same boat! I know that somedays (like tomorrow, because right now I feel like as if my energy is completely drained and I just want to go to bed even though it's only 8 PM and my body is going to be screaming in protest tomorrow when I wake up from it's unfamiliar soreness) I will be needing double the motivation and double the strength to continue my journey on. My bed and my couch will be extra inviting and teasing tomorrow but I will not be weak. I will be strong. Hopefully this post will inspire some of you who are struggling to want to make a new change and turn your life around along with me. We can do it together. You can be my motivator and I can be yours? If you have any tips for me as I begin this fitness journey, please feel free to leave suggestions and your comments down below. Thank you so much for taking time to read this and thank you for your kind comments :) Let's do this!
Until next time, from Film with love,