Monday, 30 December 2013

Goodbye 2013

As 2013 is coming to an end, I wanted to start a series that I can do every single year. I like to analyze myself, reflect, and look back to this year and see how far I've come and what I've accomplished internally. Next year, I will come back to this post and see if I have changed into a better me or stayed the same. You will be surprised by how much you can change in a year! (Like how much I hated the movie Elf last year and this year I've seen it about 7 times from November to December and it's officially my all-time favourite christmas movie (next to the Home Alone series and the Santa Claus series, duh). LOL who would have guess? If you told me this last xmas I would not have believed you! Life is so funny that way.) There are many many things I don't like about myself that I'd like to change because I know that once I do I will be much happier. Realizing what you want to change in yourself is the first step towards reaching your goal and being where you want to be, don't you think? :) So without further ado, here are somethings that identify me as me in 2013:

In 2013, I am ...

- lazy (hello, nice to meet you. I am Queen Procrastination!)

- sometimes selfish

- mostly impatient

- sometimes too uptight

- inconsistent

- sometimes a bit melodramatic

But also in 2013,

- Mike and I have become a lot closer as a couple. We are the happiest we've ever been in our 3 going on 4 years of our relationship.

- I've learned that if I really put my mind and work really really hard on something, I can do it. Not just that, I can do it REALLY, REALLY well. (hello, my first A+ in university!)

- I've learned to cook! Yes, no more cereals and instant oatmeals. I've actually spend quite some time in the kitchen this year - learning how to make different dishes. I'm so proud of myself haha if you knew me personally you'll know I don't even know how to boil eggs properly! This is such a milestone for me haha I am so excited :)

For the new year 2014,

- I would like to be more active in my life. Yes, I want to erase the word lazy permanently from my vocabulary. I will not procrastinate. I will be active in my academic career (starting my assignments early and NOT 2 days or a day before it is due!!! I am THE WORST for this.) I will also be active physically. No more procrastinating in working out ("I'll start going to the gym Monday." *missed Monday* "oh, I'll start NEXT Monday." STORY.OF.MY.LIFE.)

- I will not be selfish. I think this can be a hard one for some. People like to tell you to "put yourself first". That is true in a way, but sometimes you need to put other people's needs before your own. You need to be more considerate of other's feelings. We are all human and we are all equal. No one is better than another. We have to be more kind to each other. We have to be selfless.

- I need to have more patience. I need to understand that not everything is going to go at my pace (once again, linked to "selfishness"). I need to be more open and understanding :)

- I need to let loose more in my life! Sometimes I'm too serious and uptight. I need to relax and be silly and most importantly, I need to learn how to poke fun at myself and laugh along with whatever humour life brings!

- I have to be consistent. Being consistent leads to being hard working. I am going to be graduating this coming Spring and that means I will be going into the real world. The working, career-woman, big girl world. I need to learn how to be consistent with myself. This is difficult for me as there are plenty of times I've given up on things that I've started and never really finishing it because I've let my laziness or fear of failing get in the way.

- And lastly, to be less melodramatic. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Sometimes I like to blow things out of proportion, freak myself out and create problems that aren't there in the first place by simply thinking too much. I need to stop overthinking and putting thoughts inside my head. I need to stop freaking myself out for absolutely no reason.

So here are some of my final thoughts for this year 2013. Farewell, you have taught me a lot. Here I am, at the end of the year ... a 21 year old girl, who is still confuse about life and who she wants to be and what she wants to do after she graduate. But I am also a 21 year old girl, who is so blessed with an amazing family who constantly have my back and always believe in me. I can't wait for what 2014 will bring me. I can't wait for what 2014 will bring you! I hope you guys had a great 2013 and thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking time to read my blog :) You have found me for a reason and I hope that I can help you, whoever you are and wherever you are in the world, through my blog. Until next time,

from Film with love xx

1 comment:

  1. Such a beautiful post!! I agree on the lazy one for myself too.. actually most of them haha :). Good luck xx Jess